Happiness Rating: 3/10

Early this morning I posted about being fucked off. My love life (surprise, surprise) - stinks.

Found a lovely lady (you may have noticed), who I could really see things working out with. (Truth be known - she found me, but hey!) She is pretty, bright, emotional, caring, passionate about life and her kids. A bit like me - apart from the pretty bit.

However, things arent right for her at the moment. She gets terribly stressed about things and she has a lot going on in her life at the moment, and the last thing she needed was more baggage. As a baggage person myself, that I can understand :)

Anyhoo, the upshot is, she thinks it would be unfair to get involved with someone right now, but things should be better in the New Year. (I thought this might have been a brush off, but apparently not according to one of her close friends. I bloody hope so anyway) So, we will see what happens.

To say I am gutted is an understatement. I was stunned to a degree of:
1) Chandler picking up on it and then spending an hour making me laugh, and
2) assembling my kids bunkbeds. (and forgot to do the whole web page thing - sheesh!)
But there you go, I feel happy and then *BOOM*, a bunker full of shit lands on me again.

[link]   Posted @ 11:08

For some time I have been debating what to do with this place. As a blog, its a bit of mixed bag. It has links (sometimes), an online diary (most of the time) and random wordage (very rarely).

I'm thinking that what I would like to do is split my "blogality" (I think I just invented that word - blog and personality mixed up) into seperate areas.

I want an online diary so that I can rant about stuff and feel better about myself. Get a little personal and strained. Be more emotional online. I used to, but I feel more restrained nowadays. Maybe its because my life isnt so fucking shit anymore.

I want somewhere to have all my links (updated daily of course) as a point of reference for all my wandering around the net, and the ability to take everyone on a little journey with me so they can see what makes me tick, makes me laugh, makes me love, etc

Plus I want somewhere for all my random shit. I'm a member of a mailing list that keeps me in stitches a lot of the time. There are some weird people on that list, most of whom are now firm friends (yes - I have met up with people off the net, and I wasnt abducted or anything).
Erm. Where was I?
Oh yeah. Random shit :)
I might put up my little stories, some of the stuff from the mailing list archives that I have been responsible for.

So I'm thinking - what about 3 sites (all with an easy to use online updating system)?

There's here for starters. I think this will remain my diary, and I think I will start using it more often. Putting more of me into it. I find I feel a hell of a lot better after a good typing session. Although I sometimes come back and edit it, which I really shouldnt do. This will be my true home. I like it here, I just have to get direction around the shit that lies around me.

There is poo-face.com. This was meant to be a site for a group of friends to blog on, but that group has now drifted far and wide, off to Uni, vanished, etc so the plan now will be for this place to become my links doodah. I'll start the design pretty soon and get my mate Andy to sort out an engine for me to use.

Then there is striatum.org (dont click on it, cos it comes back here). This was the site of my old hosting company. The striatum is a part of the central brain through which virtually everything passes through. That could be a good place for my mad ramblings and suchlike. Once again, it needs a design and an engine.

So, first things first. I'm gonna be doing titles/topic for all my entries now, as well as adding a happiness rating. I will also be turning the comments on, so that I can get some feedback (if there is any) on my wibble. Then I'll get the other 2 sites up and running and off we go. I'm gonna try for a Jan 1st 2004 launch date - that would be good.

[link]   Posted @ 10:47

You know how (if you have ever been reading my blog for any period of time) just when I think things are going my way for once, it all ends up tits-over-arse?

Well, it used to get to me. Now...




IT REALLY FUCKS ME OFF!

[link]   Posted @ 00:29

Not going to the computer fair after all. Rhiannon went to bed with a blocked nose and has woken up with a stinking cold :(

Roast dinner for lunch I think and a sandwich/picnic tea.

I have however put some of the pictures from Ian and Shelles wedding up (after resizing). I (nor Tracey) appear in any of them - phew! Have a look at them here

[link]   Posted @ 09:04

The kids were up at 4.30 yesterday morning and 5.30 this morning. God knows why! Going to the computer fair this morning with Andy from work to get a DVD Writer and a new gfx card so I can play Call of Duty.

Round to Traceys this evening, and I will try not to make it such a late one :)

I spoke to my sister, my nan and my mum (who is now living in France) on Friday evening. They all seem fine, although the situation was still strained with my mum, especially when I told her I was seeing someone. What was she expecting - that I stay lonely for the rest of my days?!?! My nan was pleased for me though - she rocks :)

[link]   Posted @ 07:09

Right. Where do I start? Loads has happened over the past couple of days...

Wednesday night. Got home with kids and they huge amounts of tea. Dropped them back around 8pm, and put them to bed and then popped round to see Ian and Shelle and then back home to spend some time with my mate who was staying for a couple of days.

I also rang Jonete earlier on Wednesday to find out if Tim was alright, as he hadnt been home for a couple of days AFAICT. They eventually tracked him down in Plymouth - he went down to see Emma for a couple of days and didnt tell any of us! Hehe :)

Thursday lunchtime - I get a phone call from Bimbo saying that she is getting married! Which is pretty cool in my book. Her and Pete are well suited and make each other pretty damn happy, so thats good thing :) She rang me later in the day to tell me the date - November 29th 2003 @ 3pm. She isn't well again (HINT: See archives for details) so they thought they should get on with it - good for them I say. The kids will be bridesmaid/pageboy and I will be going along to see it all - with Tracey (although I still need to tell her about it...)

Last night I decided to pop round and surprise her with a bottle of wine that I had been given at work. I called a couple of times but got no reply, so just went on round. I knocked and rang the bell, but got no reply, so went away feeling a little worried. I then went round to Ian and Shelles to watch a film (Friday the 13th Part 2 - what arse!) and then stayed for a while watching L!VE TV on Sky.

What a blast! With such quality shows as "Strip Masterbrain" (women strip off for every incorrect answer), "Painted Ladies" (women make a painting by putting paint on themselves and then rolling around), "I've Got Wood" (undressed lady using power tools) and "Orgasmatron" (not really sure). It was essentially a load of programs that looked like they had been thought up by blokes down the pub after several drinks - just the kind of stuff me and my mates would come up with. Bizarre but hilarious!

This morning I get a text from Tracey. She had lost her phone yesterday (left it at her new house), then when she had got home, she got the boys to sleep and got in the bath. Then some berk knocked on the door, woke Lee up and got her out the bath. I had to call her and tell her it was me. Oops! We had a bit of a laugh about it and will get together over the weekend.

Plus we have Weston Carnival on Monday night that I will be going to. I think I have only ever missed 2 in my life (due to being out of the country).

Todays link to the bizarre is this. Sometimes I get really worried...

[link]   Posted @ 14:09

Ace news item on Ananova. I have seen little signs up in my local town and also Bristol, banning people in Burberry. Its a little extreme, but very funny. One of my friends Ruth wont be impressed of course, as she is a big fan :)

I'm incredibly tired (yet again) due to not getting home until 3am this morning. So am drinking water and taking some Pro-Plus to give me a kick. Picking the kids up later and then round to Ian and Shelles for filmage (and probably sleep).

[link]   Posted @ 15:33

Watched Near Dark last night, accompanied by a pizza and 2 bottles of Black Tower, at Traceys. Well, we didn't actually see much of the film due to our continual talking. We could talk for England - its great :) We've arranged to see each other again (on several future occasions), so I'm a very happy chappy!

Gotta do some planning for Chandlers birthday soon - December 6th is fast approaching, and I've got the kids that weekend. I'll speak to their mum tonight when I pick them up for the evening. Working out who to invite, where to have it, what to eat, etc, etc. The problem is with inviting other children, is that most of them are Rhiannons friends, not his. He had quite a few people at his last birthday party, and spectacularly had no idea what was going on :)

I have my Thunder tickets for the 26th November @ The Carling Academy, Bristol. There are a few of us going -Myself, Tracey, Martin, Ian, Shellie, Pete, Andy and Tim. I have been listening to their albums again and they rock! I've also ordered their latest album, as I suspect part of their set will come from there.

Plus I have tickets to Electric 6! on December 12th. On the same night as the works Xmas party. That should be a blast :)

[link]   Posted @ 10:32

We lost the last game of the season :(
I think we have a couple of weeks off and then it starts again.

Am extremely tired this morning (one of my mates was round my house for the early hours this morning, distraught and in tears) plus I have eaten something I shouldnt have done. Lets hope the Imodium kicks in soon.

Seeing Tracey tonight, and I will have to apologise for my condition, although I suspect I will perk up later on this evening. Maybe I'll take some pep pills or have a Red Bull later on.

Funny link today is from The Register with its story of a speeling mistake on the Debenhams website. Also some bizarre cartoons here, here and my favourite here. Enjoy!

[link]   Posted @ 11:21

Today I have 2 quotes. One is deep and meaningful:-
Theres nothing more lonely in the world than being with the wrong person.

the other is what I said to two colleagues who were arguing:-
Its closed minded people like you, who try to convince opinionated people like him...

I walked away quickly :)

Playing 5-a-side tonight, the last game of the season. Which means I get my Monday nights back for a few weeks - yay!

[link]   Posted @ 13:49