I picked Rhiannon and Chandler up on Friday evening from Bimbos mums - as I had to go round there to help shift 5 cubic metres of wood bark into her back garden! But then we all got fed, so it was worth it :)

Yesterday, we spent most of the day at Ian and Shellies - with the kids playing (Chandler was pretend mowing the patio for a good 2 hours) and then a BBQ in the evening.

Down the pub today for lunch - Chandler fell asleep as we parked (12:30) and at this moment he still hasnt woken up. Rhiannon then fell asleep around 14:00, so I am in the house with 2 sleeping children.

I'm feeling really down at the moment. I spent the early hours of Saturday morning (03:00 - 04:00) talking someone out of killing themselves, added to a bit of news that, although I am not bothered by, annoyed me greatly. I cant explain right now - but I will in the next few days I would of thought.

Part of me wants to cry, part of me wants to get stoned, part of me wants to drink myself stupid. The only thing keeping my mind off stuff at the moment is Rhiannon and Chandler keeping me busy - but they are asleep of course :(

Only a couple of weeks til our holiday in Cornwall, and I think I have everything apart from food prepared. How sad am I?

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